Fear dude yav got some guu in yo, yo have are tell ya (Mr Fear you have an extraordinary amount of spirit in you) ,,,with what you have and do go through in life, i wish i could donate something and make it piss off from ya so you can be free of the crap you have to go through cos if i could i would and i swear by that, and i bet many others on here would,
Used to do boxing when u was about 12 for a few years, luv'd it and it was the fittest i have ever been in life even better than playing footie Karate so i know how beneficial that training is but by god i could never master then ball thingey's lol that you have to time jesus i tried though lol
P.S. do you know that big poster of the bloke looking like he is about to throw them roses on your gym wall is that like an Illuminati symbol?